Problems Performing Normality: Kae Tempest, Rebecca Sugar, Noelle Stevenson, Orville Peck, and Melissa Etheridge
Orville Peck covers Bronski Beat’s “Smalltown Boy.”
This hiding from myself has led to all kinds of difficulties in my life. And this is a first step towards knowing and respecting myself better.
I’ve loved Kate. But I am beginning a process and I hope you’ll come with me.
So as a project, I’m on gopherspace now. Gopher was a competing protocol to the World Wide Web that focused almost exclusively on plain text files. If you have a gopher extension like OverbiteWX for Firefox, lynx, or elpher for emacs, the url is gopher://garnet.cbrachyrhynchos.com/ or you can go use the web proxy.
Media discussion under cut:
In all my dreams before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.
— Wilfred Owen, “Dulce et Decorum Est”
One of the things that annoys me about a lot of horror is how mental illness is used, or becomes the “game over” condition. Arguably that goes all the way back to the origins of the genre where the hypersensitivity of characters in “The Tell-Tale Heart” and “The Fall of the House of Usher” become a compulsion to commit horrifying crimes. Lovecraft in particular seems to conclude with characters going mad with horror. It’s even among the core mechanics of the Call of Cthulhu TTRPG, and Sunless Sea CRPG.
Regaining your sanity is possible, but typically difficult. You may get a few points of SAN returned after a successful scenario, or as a reward when you raise one of your character’s skill ratings above 90%, but other methods of regaining SAN such as therapy may be a long and troublesome process.
There is the flip-side to this, of “you’re not really paranoid if things really are out to get you.” The Terminator and The Matrix seem to leverage that trope. Sarah Connor and Neo are not really crazy and the bogeymen really exist. The seer in this narrative ends up positioned like the Trojan Cassandra, doomed to be right but never really believed. Stephen King also seems to live in this space rather frequently.
Knox seems to work in the middle ground between these two contrasts, which is a space occupied for me currently by Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice and a handful of other works. In addition to her ability to peek into other worlds, Morgan Knox is a survivor of some of the most brutal trench warfare of World War I. Her experiences as a war nurse broke her, although not in the way one would expect. She’s driven repeatedly to “go over the top” in suicidal attempts to save one more life. In the end, her coping strategies ultimately save herself and New York City.
a string of pearls
as seen through telescope
torn, tumbled, split apart,
by gravity of others
baked in radiation
of folklore, history, tradition
until boulders explode
with grasshopper force
pulled into my atmosphere
from a distance
dust and gas
fill the frame
in the right season
bigger than the moon
the smokey corona
thinner than air
masks the core of tumbling rubble.
Three nice little utility functions. I often use temporary passwords for sites that I’m only going to use once, or don’t want to keep in my password store.
opensslto generate a new password and store it in an array in case I need it later.
printpassprints all of the stored passwords created with
newpass. (Standard disclaimers on not using this for anything critical.)
histfreqcomes from an interesting one-liner published on Networkworld. It gives you frequency analysis of my shell history.
code under cut
– Sarah Shook, “New Ways to Fail” (Explicit)
Chorus lyrics and explicit language under the cut.
This isn’t a systematic literature review, just a set of articles I’ve collected over the last year or so through Google News alerts. Most of these studies address LGB or LGBT populations. However a significant pattern across many of them is that bisexual people have worse outcomes in one or more dimension.
One of the frequent unix shell addons that people use is a “z” function. This function keeps a record of previously known folders and provides a nice and short little command-line trick to jump to the most recent folder using a fragment of the name. For example
z Dowill jump directly to
~/Downloadsif you’ve visited it before. Two of the popular implementations are:
- z.sh: Started giving me errors about tapping the history file.
- z.lua: Works very well, but requires installing lua every time I configure a new system.
Both of these operate on a “frecency” basis. More recent and more frequent items get a higher score. But I realized I wasn’t using most of the features of z.lua. zsh has a similar utility
cdrthat stores a list of recent folders and allows for jumping by list order.
cdr 3jumps to the third item on the list. So I wrote a function to jump by partial folder name, or use
fzfto give me a menu of multiple matches.
“Subtlety is for fuckers.”
– The Meatpunk Manifesto
It’s an old and familiar folk story. The Valkyrie, Brunhild, disobeys Odin and kills one of his favored. As a punishment, Brunhild is banished to a ring of fire on a mountain until the bravest of mortal warriors can pass through and marry her. In the cycle of Heathen the warrior is the young woman, Aydis. Aydis has also been banished for a crime against patriarchal authority, and offers to lift the curse without really understanding what she’s getting into.
Sometimes you just have to punch fascists, and sometimes you just have to quest against patriarchal authority.
And I have a shell one-liner to convert my org files to html via pandoc:
pandoc --bibliography bibliography.bib --from org --to html *.org > all.html
Rather than write a large number of shell scripts or aliases for each variation, I set up a Makefile. A Makefile uses the syntax:
target: sourcefiles shell command1 shell command2
Then when I run
make targetthe shell commands run in sequence. And the shell commands are saved for the next time I need them.